I hesitate to read 'Jonathan's Notebook'

I've flipped through the first few pages... then stopped. Do I really want Jonathan to 'splain everything he's doing or was trying to do? Or would I rather have eternal possession of my own mental take of what was going on, devoid of any 'splanation? My decision could be fateful. Thanks and hat-tip to Vanessa for the obviously-incredible find.
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